I am not fond of whiners or being a whiner. If there is a problem I want to figure out how to fix or remove it.
Can’t say that I don’t understand how some people stay where they are because they fear what could happen if they try to change their situation because I have been there. And in some ways I suppose I have maintained my own status quo because it was what I knew.
But at the same time I have never understood why some people insist on letting life kick their ass each day and how they never seem to have had enough.
Because I can’t live that way or be that guy.
Yet sometimes when I read what I have written it feels that way so I consider my thoughts and ask myself why I feel as I do.
Most of the time it comes back to feeling like I do it all on my own and that there is no support or limited understanding about what I am facing and have faced.
Others might disagree with me but that is ok because I am not interested in building a consensus about how I feel. What I know is that November-February were among the least pleasant times in recent memory and that if felt like my skin was being flayed while hot sauce was being poured over me.
Things improved a bit and some equilibrium was found but it didn’t fix what felt off because this transition time is grinding upon me. I feel like I am climbing a mountain and the other climbers have fallen off but since they are still connected to me I am dragging them up the side inch by inch.