Once my brain was stuck in neutral and I wasn’t entirely sure what to do but today I don’t have that particular excuse to use.
Today I know exactly what I want to do but I can’t do it so I have to decide how I want to phrase it:
I can’t do it…ever.
I can’t do it…today.
I can’t do it…yet.
Or maybe I won’t give it an ending. Maybe I’ll let it hang.
Another New Year’s Eve approaches and I can add that to the list of things I want to do/spend differently this year. Don’t have to close my eyes to picture or imagine any aspect of it.
If and when it should come about it might be different in many ways but I am confident the feelings I have in the places that matter will feel full and not empty.