“I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.” Dune
Overslept today and missed an important meeting. Took a moment for me to wake up and realize what had happened because at first I was convinced that the clock was wrong, how could it be 9 AM.
I rarely oversleep and I don’t miss meetings especially when I know about them in advance. I did and I did. Overslept and missed a meeting I knew about in advance.
Didn’t panic but didn’t feel good. Had a few moments where I wanted to slap myself silly but saw no real point or benefit to it. Took a few minutes to clear my mind and right the ship, but I did it.
It was still a painful day, just a lot of hard crap to deal with and I felt like most of it was unnecessary but ultimately I powered through it and found my center.
Reminded myself that I am built to last and am capable of meeting the challenge and once I did that I found my smile. The funny thing about aging is that when I was younger I didn’t worry about most of the challenges I have faced or am facing. Just didn’t cross my mind.
But now I am so much stronger, mentally and emotionally tougher so I am ready to take it all on. Might not want to or be interested in some of it, but if it comes I can and I will.
There is no question in my mind that I will find a way and that I am heading in the right direction. Would like to feel more peace of mind than I do now, but that will come and there are benefits to this edge.
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